You know how so many people have trouble sleeping? Well, that’s not my problem. For me, the problem is GETTING to sleep. I can be sitting in the recliner, watching TV, my eyes so heavy I can barely keep them open, but the moment my head hits the pillow – Boinggg! – my eyes are wide open. Some nights, I lie there just looking up a the gray ceiling, endless thoughts swirling around in my head. I’ve tried playing calm music, taking a shower, reading a book, turning over on my belly and sticking my head under the pillow, doing yoga in bed, drinking Chamomile tea, and meditating (sometimes the meditating helps).
Strangely, once I fall asleep, I sleep soundly. Even if I have to get up three times during the night to go to the bathroom, I fall asleep the moment I lie back down. This difficulty falling asleep doesn’t happen all the time, perhaps two or three times a month. I’ve been looking for the common denominator. Does it happen on nights when the moon is full and thus the sky is brighter? Or when the homeless people at the nearby Salvation Army are whoopin’ it up? Do I drink too much coffee or eat too late in the day?
I have a sneaking suspicion it has nothing to do with any of the above. I suspect it has to do with something deep inside me that is screaming to be let out. I desperately want to simplify my life and am working toward that end, but it is a slow process. Little by little, the real me is emerging. When I finally step onto that path that I am destined to walk, I’ll sleep like a baby once again.